R Double O

reality is not what everyone percieves but what i do alone. Today I am an original me not a repleca of any sorts. Got a rap show tonight its gonna be the shit. Ill hit you up later

ICP in Philly tonight cant wait

well this last week was great got my algeba test results 104 yeah baby fuckin nailed it. im third in the class. i am passin all my classes with flyin colors. just got to keep studyin and focusing on school. Plus my music too. got to get that ready for da show. Nov 3rd it on at the fromage. I got one song done plus the one my nutz and neche are doin. still got to make up two more by then. they gonna be hottt. well im out. time to sleep got to work at 6 am . this will be the last week for it. I'm goin back to the gulf to work part time doin odds and ends. will be way better. peace

Well today I feel fully accomplished. I got all my fucking homework done, which by the way is so important to understanding the work learned in class. anyway got all my shit done. Now i wrote a complete new song for my rap game. And can i say that shit is gonna be fuckin fire. It's all about me and and who i am. be on the look out for that.i'm off to bed cause i got school tomorrow. peace

I got lyrics flowing to me like the nile. My mind is on fucking super speed overload and I need to get my shit recorded. JFK is changin. I cant wait to get this new song with Bignutz done. My homie for life. In the workds of violent J "I'm trapped in my mind and my brain is the cell, but I have the key its called insanity" Oh so true. Well I'm bout to blow and rip a flow

Well I'm another 90 days clean since that little pill episode. Haha look back and laugh its all good. anyway moving on I'm another 90 days clean and things are going well. I got my room all cleaned up and organized so now I can keep motivated. I got most of my school work done so far. Got to finish it up tonight. Oh i recorded my new tracks with my boys. shit is hottt. myspace.com/roonnj check it.Now I'm in JFK and we gonna be rippin it up. hopefully to do some shows real soon. I talked to my pops the other day. That went well. its been 5 years. Now hes sending me some money and got me a membership to this IT courses.Now my potential is unlimeted. Shit I'm on top movin up. Get with me or get left behind. Peace I'm out.

I was reading some of this old shit I wrote and its funny to see where i been. I got to keep writing more. hahaha I'm not going to keep any of this private I want everyone to read it.

Well I am back in more ways than one motherfacko. First of all Back on my computer where I belong. I havent updated shit in a while so it back too it. Second I went in tha casino today with some chips a lady gave me and ended up walking out up 20 bucks. I know its not alot but atleast I left with money so woot woot. Third I am getting back on track with my life summer was fun but time to pay bills and get good grades. More to come peace.

Well today was a very productive day. I got the oil changed on my car and found out I had no brake light which really sucked since I drove all over last night. Then I went and got a shave at the barber shop which is one of my favorite things to do. Then I had lunch at the little shop on the corner I love that place its all small and quiet. Yeah I'll go there again. Then I came home to catch some Z's since I had a little head ache. Then me and Tori went tanning for a minute. I'm starting to get pretty dark. Then we went to yoga class which was really great I learned so much it was great. The guy who was running it has been doing this for over 40 years he really knows this stuff. I am really in touch with my inner self and I am totally spiritual. I am so happy I went and that Tori came with me. Well Then we went and learned some more about the tanning stuff. So over all I had a really prductive day. And now I am off to bed so I can get up early cause I have to go to court. later

I quit smoking on St. patricks day so far so good. I been feeling better about it the urges have been going away and Tori has been helping me alot when I feel like I need it I talk to hear she listens and has some input I feel much better today I'll never forget my promise and I'll never smoke again for the rest of my life I really quit it this time and I hope to be an example to others to see it can be done. I went from getting high as fuck, drunk smoking tons of cigarettes and other various drugs. To what I am today totally drug, alcohol, tobacco free. I have chosen the path of straight edge and I fully understand what it is all about I'm living my life in a healthy way and today I feel fucking great. Well I got to head out but one last thing this isnt a trend or something I'm doing for right now this is fucking forever till the end. Always

Uh oh shit is crazy today I feel like I am not doing anything at all. I'm so bored and I have no motivation for shit. It's like 6 and I havent done a fucking thing all day. I'm getting off track with myself and I need to work on that. There have been a few time lately where I been kind of negative and thats not really good. I totally forgot I was going to dinner with my Mom and Grandma tonight she called as I was writing this isn't that fucking wierd. Well now I have plans so thats good and look I'm being positive well thats even better. You see how fucking great my life is. Well I have to go now I went tanning earlier with Fabulous and now I feel all hot good maybe I'll get a nice tan going on I'm gonna have to go a few more times . Myspace is boring me it's like if you dont keep on sending people shit or posting stuff you people forget about you and I love my layout so I dont want to change it so whats there to do but send messages and check other people shit. I'm gonna take a myspace break. I been watching alot of movies with Fab and some are good and some are gay. Desperate souls totally turned me gay for 5 minutes the next day. I wish I never saw that movie. Check out High Tension thats a great movie. Well I'm off to do whatever it is I feel like doing now. Peace

Well well it has been a while since I been on here to update this I had to delete a few entries (my good friends know why) So yesterday was my birthday and now I am 25. A whole fucking quarter of a century do you fucking believe this. It is so crazy to be this old people say I am young but I dont fucking buy that yeah I look and feel young, but I am really getting older. Alot of fucking shit has change in my life in the past two and a half months and I really mean alot. To start out I have been geeting high and drunk my whole life I mean since I been 14 and I always though that this was good you know to escape the world be differnt feel good. Many lame ass reasons. Well I been on a so called rollercoaster ride ever since. Ups and Downs all the time. On top of the world one minute bottom of the gutter the next. Yeah its true and any of you out there who get fucked up all the time know exactly what I mean. I'm not out to try and save everyone right now I got to worry about myself so this isnt like preaching you know what I mean. Well back to the story. I been working at this mechanic shop or should I say was when one day I talked to my boss and told him what was up with me I really had enough of the ride at this point I wanted off for good. So he turned me on to this program I got involved with. Well let me tell you that motherfucker changed my whole life getting me started in this. Now I been totally clean and sober I mean I dont even touch a drop of beer or the littlest hit of weed or nothing. This has never been the case for me before.Ever since this has happened you would not believe all the good shit that has happened to me so far. I feel and look 1000% better. I'm way more talkative and outgoing. I lost all shyness or embarrasment. one of the biggest things I have some fucking money in my pocket and I have the motivation to do anything my mind can come up with and I usually do. So now I quit my job as a mechanic which I have been doing for 4 years. I cant picture myself busting my ass fixing cars in 10 years from noe so I am going to make a start on a future now. I'm going to be going to college full time for computers which is my true passion in life. I love this fucking thing its what I want to do for a career. So this is crazy that I am going to ba a college student.So thats just a quick run down of what been going on I mean theres more to it than that, but I'll leave that for another time. Me and my sister have been tighter than ever. I met a couple girls off myspace and it wasnt all I expected. People arent anything like what their profiles make them out to be you know. I just try to keep it real you know be origional. Well Tori is really my best friend and I can say that cause she's my friend who I hang with all the time I feel so comfortable around her and I can tell her anything without being judged. Even though there is a major age difference we can still hang together like were the same age. She keeps me young and I definately like that alot.I bought alot of new clothes which I havent bought clothes in like 4 or 5 years maybe some here and there but never a full wardrobe. I bought 15 shirts 4 pairs of jeans and 2 pairs of shoes. I love this house I live in Joy takes good care of me aand she treats me like a son. I love her so much. Wish I could influence Nick some more he's a good kid and he's headed down the wrong road. You know when I was younger so many different people told me about the wrong road and I just wasn't trying to hear it, so I guess I can understand where all these kinds are coming from. Same story with my sister she doesn't see it but she doing things that could put her future in danger. Well maybe I'll just keep leading by example and hopefully everyone will change thier way's one day. Well I have to get off to bed cause I have fucking court tomorrow for a stupid ass speeding ticket I got on my way to the concert in NY. Oh yeah that concert was the best I have ever been to. It was so much fucking fun. Ill Bill, Jedi Mind tricks, Sabac Red, Mr. Hyde, Slaine, Q-Unique. @CBGB's in NYNY. I'll never forget that shit. So happy my sister went with me. Well I'm talking to this girl now her name is Jenna. she way older than me 33 to be exact. She has some issues, but who doesn't. I'm gonna take this one really slow. Everytime I jump into a relationship or move quick that shit ends up getting fucked up. Well I can't say everytime. it has happened. I just dont want anymore bullshit. I hope it really works out. maybe I'd like to be married and have a kid. you know I feel like I want it not right now but eventually. We will see. I dont know I'm going to bed right now so I'll get back soon. Peace. Mark

Hey this is my first entry I dont have nothing to write just yet